That awkward moment when

someone says they want to be independently happy and then are constantly looking for a new boyfriend.

I was the ONLY person on the planet that took you seriously. You were the token gay guy, a joke, to EVERYONE but me.

And then you have the nerve to say you want to find someone who takes you seriously?

Fuck off, just say you didn't like me any more.

I can't fucking STAND when people can't be upfront about that kind of stuff. Lying doesn't make me feel better, I swear.

I don't think anyone broke my trust more than you did. Hopefully I'll find someone who can make me trust people again.

I need to start dating, pronto. I don't know where I'll find them but I need to find them. I deserve someone. I'm not that lame. I know I'm kinda weird but I'm not that terrible, am I? I generally give a shit about what I look like. I can speak to people okay. I am not socially retarded. Why isn't that good enough for most gay people?

The only guys who will talk to me are straight guys and they don't fucking count. It's almost like that works against me. I don't understand how people think.

I know I'm ranting, I get it, but it's helping me not have a totally shitty night.

He doesn't deserve to be happy when I'm not. I gave him a serious chance that he won't get again any time soon. Hopefully I'll get that same chance someday.