Tests

I feel like I'm tested a lot. Like, nothing is ever simple or easy for me, except for my apartment which my dad is helping me out soooooo much with
but I mean, like, in school and with relationships, platonic and romantic.
I've never had the "normal" people as my friends. In middle school we were the weird anime and video game kids. Then, at the end of middle school I found out I liked boys and that was another test, to survive your entire middle school knowing you were gay.
Then, going to a high school where you had like 3 friends sucked was pretty terrible.
North was okay, I can't complain about that besides not having many friends my age, but I didn't care about that.
Now, I have a boyfriend that lives an hour away who I currently cannot contact at all, close friends who live the same distance and I can only see once every two weeks tops, and a family I'd rather not talk to right now.
I guess maybe I pick to make these tests? I'd like to think I don't, but it seems like I never pick the easy way through anything. Oh well.

I don't think anything in that paragraph made any sense at all, but it helped to type it out.

and p.s. to you, sir, I hope you miss me as much as I miss you.

I get the feeling you don't.

hopefully I'm wrong.