for you two to meet.
you were the two most important males in my life. One my boyfriend and one my non-heriditary brother
I think we all would have gotten along a lot and had a lot of fun.
but now I don't have either of you.
stuff doesn't always work out how you want it to though I guess. Maybe one day I'll have both of you guys back and we can watch a movie together or something. Until then I'll keep moving and keep trying to be happy.
I just really wish you guys were here to experience it with me.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Hey Reed
I fucking hate you.
you're a horrible human being.
you try to act like you're so fucking innocent and nice.
you're conceited about your "intelligence", playing ability, and looks *barf*
you're fucking disgusting when it comes to sexual stuff
you would steal someone's boyfriend in a SECOND if it meant you could get with the person.
I don't understand why people don't see how much of an axewound you really are except for me and a couple of other people.
I wish I never had to hear your name or see you again.
get the FUCK out of my life.
you're a horrible human being.
you try to act like you're so fucking innocent and nice.
you're conceited about your "intelligence", playing ability, and looks *barf*
you're fucking disgusting when it comes to sexual stuff
you would steal someone's boyfriend in a SECOND if it meant you could get with the person.
I don't understand why people don't see how much of an axewound you really are except for me and a couple of other people.
I wish I never had to hear your name or see you again.
get the FUCK out of my life.
Monday, January 24, 2011
while it's on my mind
you asked me what being in love was like.
I had to think about it for a bit, but I'll do my best. This is just to me, but hopefully it'll help you understand a bit.
Love is when one person tells you that you're okay the way you are.
that you are special to them like no one else is.
that you're worth going out of their way to make happy
that you are beautiful no matter what
that you are fun to be with whether you have money or not.
that even if you disagree on an issue, you care about the person enough to look past it/work through it
And when that person leaves or gives up.
it makes you feel like everything they did or said was a lie or not true.
That's why it's so hard to deal with someone leaving.
at least to me.
I had to think about it for a bit, but I'll do my best. This is just to me, but hopefully it'll help you understand a bit.
Love is when one person tells you that you're okay the way you are.
that you are special to them like no one else is.
that you're worth going out of their way to make happy
that you are beautiful no matter what
that you are fun to be with whether you have money or not.
that even if you disagree on an issue, you care about the person enough to look past it/work through it
And when that person leaves or gives up.
it makes you feel like everything they did or said was a lie or not true.
That's why it's so hard to deal with someone leaving.
at least to me.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
why do I
have to be the unhappy one?
I did EVERYTHING for you.
I went against my better judgement and stayed with you.
and you spit in my face.
I still like you a lot,
but I will never have respect for you and I will never forgive you for taking my trust and my heart and smashing them.
The person I'm talking to now just told me he was basically a fake and I'm almost repulsed by him now.
I feel like if I stay the way I am I will never find anyone.
But why should I have to change for everyone else?
Why do I have to be the unhappy one?
I really enjoy being nice to people and helping people, but now I'm afraid that this is going to happen again.
Why?
What did I ever do to deserve to have that happen to me?
I don't think I'll ever be able to understand that.
Hearts aren't rented out, they're given as a gift of good will. You trust the person to take care of it and love it just like you take care of theirs. Hopefully someone can repair my feelings, because for now I have 0 interest in giving broken equipment to people.
I'm not sure if anyone would ever want to get this thing anyways, apparently it's not any good anyways.
:/ when will I get the good things I KNOW I deserve? I'd like to know...
I did EVERYTHING for you.
I went against my better judgement and stayed with you.
and you spit in my face.
I still like you a lot,
but I will never have respect for you and I will never forgive you for taking my trust and my heart and smashing them.
The person I'm talking to now just told me he was basically a fake and I'm almost repulsed by him now.
I feel like if I stay the way I am I will never find anyone.
But why should I have to change for everyone else?
Why do I have to be the unhappy one?
I really enjoy being nice to people and helping people, but now I'm afraid that this is going to happen again.
Why?
What did I ever do to deserve to have that happen to me?
I don't think I'll ever be able to understand that.
Hearts aren't rented out, they're given as a gift of good will. You trust the person to take care of it and love it just like you take care of theirs. Hopefully someone can repair my feelings, because for now I have 0 interest in giving broken equipment to people.
I'm not sure if anyone would ever want to get this thing anyways, apparently it's not any good anyways.
:/ when will I get the good things I KNOW I deserve? I'd like to know...
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Operation
surround myself with as many people as humanly possible before I have to leave to distract myself from being in a relationship for 6 months with someone who didn't actually give a fuck about me a SUCCESS!
Until Monday, that is :/
Until Monday, that is :/
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Dang
that was the first time I cried in a
looooooooooooooong
time.
and over someone who probably didn't even like me that much.
damn.
oh well, gotta keep moving.
When I get back to school is when it's going to be awful. I'm going to need to surround myself with friends for sure :3
looooooooooooooong
time.
and over someone who probably didn't even like me that much.
damn.
oh well, gotta keep moving.
When I get back to school is when it's going to be awful. I'm going to need to surround myself with friends for sure :3
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
I have
the absolute best friends ever.
I have friends that:
teach me new things
give me new ideas
are honest without being rude
make an effort to talk to me
deal with my annoying interests
make an effort to talk to and get to know my boyfriend, which means soooo much to me.
help me understand why other people thing and act like they do.
make me feel normal, something I almost never do.
you guys are all the greatest ever and I wish I could see all of you every day and you could hear me say this stuff to you every single day. Like...seriously <333
I have friends that:
teach me new things
give me new ideas
are honest without being rude
make an effort to talk to me
deal with my annoying interests
make an effort to talk to and get to know my boyfriend, which means soooo much to me.
help me understand why other people thing and act like they do.
make me feel normal, something I almost never do.
you guys are all the greatest ever and I wish I could see all of you every day and you could hear me say this stuff to you every single day. Like...seriously <333
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