don't

ever correct my grammar again.

thanks.

I wish

I didn't have the innate ability to push away everyone important to me.

*deep Abbey's grandma sigh*

I'm working on it ;_____;

Pride Parade

was so lame.

"omg, who am I sleeping with tonight" *drinks another Jello shot* <-- this was actually said.

why is that all anyone my age cares about? ESPECIALLY gay people? and if they weren't saying stuff like that they were walking around in nothing besides their underwear...I don't even really fit in with gay people :/ maybe someday that whole subculture will appeal to me. Right now though it just seems really lame and fucking ridiculous.

I'm so tired

of people treating me like an idiot.

I am NOT an idiot, go FUCK yourself and talk to me like a human being.

damn.

Smart people

are fucking annoying and so irritating to talk to. Shut the fuck up, choke on something, and die.

on another note, I can't stand school. I don't like intellectual anything, it's not for me and just makes me feel dumb as fuck.

I KNOW I'm not dumb, but school makes me feel like I am since I am bad at reading and concentrating.

Seeing you

with someone besides me is going to kill me inside, I hope you know.

Well

I feel like a 30 year old trapped in a 19 year old's body.

I don't like parties

I don't like being trashy

I don't like acting "gay"

I don't like promiscuity...and don't get me wrong, that doesn't mean sex, that means fucking around with random people, which is something people my age just aren't into.

Am I whining? Oops. That's why I don't like talking about my feelings, I feel like I'm whining. I hope not. Oh well. Maybe someday I'll be better at expressing my feelings.