Day 7 + 8

7. Ex-Boyfriend
You were totally not right for me. You were too smart for me, too emotional for me, we just shouldn't have been together. But it worked for me somehow anyways. I think you saw way before me that we weren't meant to be together though. You were one of the first people ever to give me butterflies in my stomach though, and just like you I'll never forget that summer together. You're a great guy and I know you'll charm your way into whatever guy's heart you want :] keep being you, you're an amazing guy <333



and P.S. you've always been amazing at art, do something with it! :]


8. Internet friend
Ohhh, Megumi, you were such a cool chick :] I only got to see you at a few anime conventions and not for long enough by any means, but it was great having someone to talk to outside of my actual situation that was into the same stuff as me. You got me into some cool music and I always enjoyed just chatting with you, you are an awesome person. You'll never everrr see this, but thanks for making a really hard year in my life just a little bit easier :] I can't find the pic of you and me anywhere :/ oh well, thanks for everything <33

oh, and p.s. to someone, I hope you're as great as I think you are, I've been messed with by one too many people and I just fear you're going to ditch me like everyone else. I have faith that it will be good though :]

Day 6

6. A stranger

I'm pretty bad with strangers and making new friends, but to a stranger out there that cares about me, I hope you find me and tell me that everything is going to be alright and hold me and everything else wonderful.

yeah...

Day 5

5. My dreams

I don't dream a whole lot, but I daydream constantly.

I dream about being happy
I dream about being skinny
I dream about having someone hold me
I dream about having thin, beautiful hair
I dream about having money
I dream about living in a world where gay is normal
I dream about people dying
I dream about being a rock star
I dream about being a famous dancer
I dream of finally fitting in

I like my dreams, if only they could come true <333

Day 3 + 4

3. My Parents

Well...I guess I could break it up

Dad - my dad is very obviously bi-polar. He is super nice most of the time to my friends and myself, but if you ask him to fix something when he is in a bad mood he get's reallyyyyy angry about nothing. He likes to try to buy my love when I see him, which isn't super often since he lives in Grapevine now, but it's okay I guess. He is so hot or cold I don't know what to do or say around him, so his and my relationship with each other is just so awkward and absent of speaking that spending time with him is really tough. I think he really cares and loves me but just doesn't know how to say it or something, who knows...

Mom - my mom cares about me more than anything and tells me often. She is really into herself and her own problems and, most annoyingly, makes problems for herself. I think she finds comfort in her own problems, which I just do not understand, but whatever. I hope she finds happiness, but I don't think that will ever happen with her horrible attitude and with constantly looking for problems. I really want her to be happy though. We definitely need some time away from each other, though.



4. Brother

Oh Joey, where to start with you. You have NEVER been nice to me in my entire life until like a year ago when you start being semi nice. You are the most self-centered person I have ever met in my life, but you're not really even negative about it. You are so naive and so immature, you don't even realize how you affect people with you actions. You stroll through life with only your own concerns and what YOU want to do in mind and don't care that "hey this is a 3000 dollar program I want to do and I don't have a job so I can't afford it, you're paying for it, right Mom?" Like sometimes, I wonder what goes on in his head...I just don't understand. But I care about him a lot, despite all of that xDD

Day 1 + 2

1. My best friend

I don't have one best friend, but to my closest friend/s, thanks for putting up with me when I am really annoying and irritable and always being so nice, you're the best :]



2. My crush

I don't have any legitimate crush right now, but I have had many and basically what happens is I try to pursue it, the crush gets to know me and quickly loses interest. So I don't like talking about crushes, they don't work.

Enrique can always work though <333

This is fun :]

Letters

What a cool idea! Starting this with my next post in a minute and doing it every day for the rest of the month :]

Day 01 - your best friend
Day 02 - your crush
Day 03 - your parents
Day 04 - your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 05 - your dreams
Day 06 - a stranger
Day 07 - your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 08 - your favourite internet friend
Day 09 - someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 - someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 - a deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 - the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 - someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 - someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 - the person you miss the most
Day 16 - someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 - someone from your childhood
Day 18 - the person that you wish you could be
Day 19 - someone that pesters your mind, good or bad
Day 20 - the one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 - someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 - someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 - the last person you kissed
Day 24 - the person that gave you your favourite memory
Day 25 - the person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 - the last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 - the friendliest person you only knew for one day
Day 28 - someone that changed your mind
Day 29 - the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 - your reflection in the mirror

I hate

having to settle with everything in life, I can't be that lame, can I? And if I was I wish someone would tell meeeeeeeeeee BOO!

oh well, at least I have black people movies playing on MTV and gigantic controllable robots to make my Friday night fun :]